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Is life that suck?

2006-06-22T15:25:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone ,who reads my Blog..Lets we look at this picture above..i took it from Deviantart..

And lets we think about it..We should be thankful that we are even here right now in front of the computer...Honestly,im not a kind of a person who very thankfull for every little things.. It seems so funny to think that I could be so depressed lately when there are even more unfortunate people out there.. Forgive me ..and now i have something to say for those people who say 'life sucks' .. I have ever said it when i feel down, sad and sometimes things are unfair and even now,i feel so depressed..coz i have to fight for next sunday my exam..im very2 afraid,stress,and even learning that make me so stress....But..Now i learn,that life is the greatest gift of all... pain, suffering, hurt, sadness,difficulty,failure is the part of our life,which is makes life come to life.. Imagine us in this person's shoes, sitting by the roadside, in the middle of the crowd, begging for money to buy food to fill an empty stomach.. Honestly, I can not imagine what it feels like to be in that situation.. All I can do is be thankful and make the best out of my life.. Life does not suck.. it is how one brings him/herself to live life.. to survive..

2 days more..i dont have much time..please bless my exam...my Success depends on your supports^______^

2006-06-18T15:31:00.000-07:00

Bener2 mau bunuh diri..haha....malem2 gini jam 00.31 >_<>

I don't care.kalo ntar sakit perut ato gimana..Oh ya..kmrn doeloe..gw nekad potong rambut sendiri...haha..untung jadinya ngga ancur2 amat..>_>.Today all of my favourites team won,Brasilia..For South Korea...its okay la...Draw...they all played so good...also Australian..they played fantastic...but its the reality..they lost..:(

im become a football fan since WC 2006 until i dont have time to learn..4 days more is my exam..im not ready yet>_< .I even still very2 lazy to learning..NO Mood...because of WC..haha...not only that...i dont know why...im so confuse and i dont know what should i learn..Just bless my exam...hopefully i can pass..AMEN

Yesterday went to mall with mom to shopping..didnt buy anything..just shopping in supermarkt..That's all

I have some picture of my food yesterday..^_^

My favourite fish...Yummy..and i took the picture...hehehehehehe

And also i made cake

Haha...how do they look?>_<

my mom taught me to made them..:D

Enough for today....i just really dont have nothing to do..so just take time to writing blog..Cyaa..

Damn you..

2006-06-15T12:48:00.000-07:00

Such a shi*ty day i have...i had very2 baddream..and guess what...in my dream i walked until living room..l0l...sounds crazy...i cant believe it until now..have to study ...study...and study alot...next week i have an important exam..How do u think?could i pass it?or not?im such a lazy girl...dont have mood to study..it seems impossible to pass..How can i face it later?have u any idea?and today i went online very early..just because i wanna talk to someone...but guess what..he just care for his game...he doesnt even ask anything to me...just what are u doing?damn..im such a stupid pig here...nobody to talk to...nobody to share my shi**y problem with..and i have to face it alone..i have to be patient...nobody support me..hhaa...How wonderfull my day...at this time...i believe in KARMA...before i just critized somebody..because of what he did..Now..it happens again...Enough for today...no matter how angry i am...nobody would care for it...it just spend my energy ..

2006-05-19T17:57:00.000-07:00

Is it that hard to understand how other person's feeling?Yes maybe...i think that i have many friends around me...but only a few really know me well,and can understand me..i know that its not that easy to know one person very well..else they are really2 your bestfriends...and rite now i feel that i wanna be with them,who can support me always...is it possible?Uh..i think its hard..my parents want me to study here..which is maybe i wont find even one person that will really know me well and understand me.Yeah..im such a kind of a person who hard to get easy with other peoples..Have you ever feel such of this feeling?Angry,sad,hopeless,useless at the same time..Yes i have..Its such a bad feeling...i think i need some beach around here..so i can express my feeling there...u know what i will do..Suicide?No..life is beautiful and full of surprise..hehe..so secret.i wont tell you...Anyway..i feel that my life getting harder..but i must survive ^_^ aca..aca..FIGHTING !!

2006-05-18T12:07:00.000-07:00

Perpisahan yang menyenangkan...uahua

Today is the end of my Vb course,came too late but i dont care..as long as i can meet them for the last time..many snacks they brought..Rosa brought tortilla with the sauce..she made the sauce by herself..at first i thought its disgusting..but after i tried..damn good..i should learn from her..haha..Yesterday i didnt come..coz i had no mood to come..so today i didnt bring anything..shame on me>_<..we talked about many things..and listening to music..my friend bring an instrument CD..Kuba music...its okay...even its not my favourite songs...its good there is something to listen..not so bored..yaa suddenly the time pass by...we have to go home..but i bring my digicam today..so i asked them to take our picture together with automatic feature ^_^"

After that went to Asian shop..as usual...bought many things then run to catch the train..Gott Sei Dank..i could catch it..the weather was so hot..but i like it anyway..i wanna show my food yesterday..i cooked it by myself ^_^

This one is Pork satay...or "sate babi"<3>

And

This one is i dont know how to called it..Its made from bone and beef meat,added chilli,white onion,and soja sauce..so spicy

What do you think?looks good eh?hmm..Btw..i feel i have to learn English again..so bad..@_@

But anyway i hope you the readers can understand a bit what i meant ^_^

2006-05-08T13:24:00.000-07:00

SpringSummerFall..Winter (Feat. Taewoo Dong Wook K.C.M) MV

This is my Favourite song rite now :) i love this song ^_^

2006-05-08T12:24:00.000-07:00

My New IpoD
Maybe today is my lucky day...i woke up earlier today,so i had much time to prepare before schooling :)..I am a girl..so many things to do..before go out..haha...and i arrived earlier also..uh...no one there...so lonely...juz sit and listen to my Cd player...i juz burned some new songs this morning...And suddenly during the class,i got sms....i saw it...and its from Saturn,the shop where i bought my Ipod..Hua...im so happy...Finally...i get my Ipod again...after School..i went to that shop with my friend..had to bit Q..then i asked the man...that i want to pick my Ipod up..Haha...then i had to wait...After that...he said...this is new...we change ur Ipod...because ur ipod before cant be repaired again..Wa...new?Really?hauhaua...i was so happy..now i get a new ipod...which is very clean..not like mine before..haha..

Its good laar...i have lucky...From now on..i promise to myself to take care good of it..i wont let it fall down again >_<

2006-05-05T16:49:00.000-07:00

Late At Night

It's always useless to think of someone that never give a respect to you or of someone that never try to understand what you feel inside...Very useless things...So try to forget it slowly..coz how hard u think about it,then it will be more useless...haha...Coz..whatever u feel,they wont care a bit about u..huh..Yes...this is life..sometimes..something that we hate often happened to us...can't do anything..so juz calm down...think about the advantages from it..what?Nothing..juz enjoy your life..Life is beautiful..But if it's not..Make it so...That what Easter said..Haha..maybe she rite..what for think too much,if they never think bout you..USELESS...THINK..think..think...!!!!Dont waste your life with doing something stupid..Try to accept anything that already happened..coz anyway we cant change it..Yes..i think too much..I have to change..i have to be stronger..Coz actually i dont have anything to be afraid of..we earn from what we did in our life..Life is fair,isn't it?

2006-05-05T08:37:00.000-07:00

Hiehiehie...Friday oh friday...i love Friday..Why?Coz tomorrow is Saturday..and Saturday no school...haha...can sleep late and wake up late tomorrow...and many good program in TV...and today is very nice day..my day in the school not so boring..we played a game with 4 person in a group...and it was fun..but poor my teacher..i think these days is so hard for her...coz her mother in law is died and her bestfriend too...i saw her this morning...she tell us the story with tears kept falling down from her eyes :( ..Today we went home earlier...it was good for us..hehe...after that went to Electronic shop with Yimin..she looking for notebook...so she ask me to accompany her..hehe..no problem lah..i had so much time today...arrived home..my mom cooked something delicious for me...its from a pork..but dont know the name...so spicy ^_^..My brother had a football tournament today..my mom asked me to come with them...but i was too tired...so i prefer to stay at home..sleeping..^-^ i have some photos from my brother today...he is so cute,...here we go

He is very proud of himself...can embark on this tournament...BTW i always wish him all the best...and i hope his dream to be a football player come true ^_^

2006-05-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

HelloWorld

Hai2....Long time no blogging...was a bit busy...So angry today....Do u know my ipod still in Hospital lol...T_T so saaad...so these days i kept using my discman to hear music ^_^" and...yesterday i downloaded many songs already....i used so much bandwith..i kept awake until 1 am..confuse of choosing which songs i wanna burn...i used CD-RW...and after finished...was very happy..haha...and u know?this morning in the train..i wanna listen...i pressed the "play" button...and i waited...WAAAAAAAAAAA....No reaction....i kept trying..but the result...:( juz make me wanna shout...i can'T live without music...OMG...so can u imagine?how boring it was.....huhu....its already 2 weeks...but the shop where i bought ipod not yet call or send me sms....what happen with my ipod?what do u think?hiks....maybe tomorrow i have to go there asking...maybe they give my money back..then i can buy ipod nano..hihi.....Okay...now wanna chat with friends...:) Wish me luck ^^"

2006-03-16T15:38:00.000-08:00

='(

........I feel like wanna Cry........

2006-03-16T14:50:00.000-08:00

...Happy Day....

^_^...im so happy today...i get back my ipod..after 2 weeks she so far from me :( hiks..huahua...dont worry lah..she just had been repaired...and now...she is fine =) hehe....anyway she is the bestfriend of mine...2 weeks without her..i feel so lonely..hueheiheie..Eh i just bought a new dress for her,so later when she fall again,she will be allright..Stupid huh?...her dress is so expensive lehh~ 20 euro...waaah...more expensive than my dress..haha...its okay..ah ja,....today a bit tired...after school,i went to Saturn,where i picked up my ipod..than bought 2 earings ^^..after that went to Asian shops..the hardest part..bought so many things...so heavy T_T ..but no problem lah..today i could eat very2 delicious food...wanna know?okay i will show you..hehe..oh ja..i just finished my homework...waa..everyday homework,writing letters...OMG...im enough of homework..T_T...ah...time to sleep already ^_^...Cyaaaa......What a wonderfull Day...

2006-03-15T12:50:00.000-08:00

So sad..

Ah..i feel so angry...can u imagine?u want someone to care for u...but they dont do that...ich habe etwas erzählt von meinem Tag gestern,dass etwas gefährliches zu mir passiert...aber er reagiert nicht..er spricht nur von einem Nachricht..blaa..bla..bla...ich bin sehr enttäuscht...ich fühle mich so schlecht..ich ärgere mich darüber..ich glaube er versteht nicht..so was soll ich tun?ich möchte nicht jeden tag immer mit ihm streiten...aber auf der andere Seite es ist sehr schwierig mein Gefühl zu verstecken..T_T..es ist schon zweimal passiert..er hat niemal mich gefragt..Z.b:Ist mit dir alles in Ordnung?oder..du musst später mehr auf dich aufpassen..oder blablabla...er hat keine Sorge für mich..ich weiss nicht ob er mich wirklich liebt oder nicht...ich brauche Aufmerksamkeit.. ;(..ich hoffe nachdem du diese Blog gelesen habe..du kansst ein bisschen verstehen was ich mich fühle..Danke...

2006-03-05T12:58:00.000-08:00

*...Lügen ist menschlich...*

haha...sapa sih yang ga pernah boong?Gw rasa...smua org pasti pernah boong...sekecil apapun tingkat kebohongannya...sebaik apapun manusia...pasti lah pernah boong..ya ga?..boong juga tujuannya lain2....contoh neh...boong demi kebaikan..ya maksudnya...seseorang itu boong..buat menghindari hal2 yang tak diinginkan..supaya ga menimbulkan kemarahan pihak lain..contoh neh dalam relationship..si melisa pacaran ama si jonathan..nah melisa punya mantan yg namanya arie..abis gitu si arie sms nih ke melisa..nah suatu ketika..jonathan nanya..mel,ada sms dr sapa aja hr ini?nah loh..melisa bingung..mau jujur..ntar takut jonathan nya marah..mau boong..juga bingung...tp yah..karna melisa ngga mau menciptakan pertengkaran..ya dia blg..oh..ga ada saay...^_^..ok deh..kata jonathan...nah loh...gimana menurutlu?melisa ini bener ga?..apakah ini dikategorikan sebagai boong demi kebaikan..atoh selingkuh?...haha...susah ya jadi manusia...terkadang..org lain ngga ngerti maksudnya kita..benernya kita ga bermaksud jahat loh buat boongin org lain...tp malah dy nya salah tangkap..blg kita ga jujur,de el el...gw juga bingung..harus gimana kalo dah kena masala kaya gini..but..cobalah buat selalu jujur..jujur juga ga ada salahnya..kalo emg dynya ngerti n sayang ama kita..yah pasti dy bisa menerima...klo emg ga bisa...ya udah..at least..kita dah jujur...mo marah mo apa ya udah..ya ga?drpd boong...gw sendiri ngakui..kalo gw sering boong..apalagi ama pacar...banyak kali...haha..but..from now on..i will try to be honest..i dont care if he will be angry or not..soalnya...aq sendiri ga suka diboongin..jdnya mulai skrg gw hrs belajar hubungan timbal balik antara manusia deh...seberapapun marahnya...asal klo emg kita jujur ama yg kita blg..at least..gw ga bakal lg mrasa bersalah..krn emg gw jujur..ya ga?jujur jg ga da salahnya kan?drpd boong..huahua..oh ya...tp liat2 juga sih...kalo boong nya dah menyangkut yg kearah selingkuh..tuh baru boong jahat...uh..jangan sampe deh..kalo kaya gitu..bisa gw cincang tuh...heuhue..so..when u start to love another person..tell her/him as soon as possible...Don't ever lie to to them.....Try ur best to be honest about everything !!

2006-03-02T11:53:00.000-08:00

Hauhauahuahua......finally i did my homework already...This teacher is really2 crazy one...bored...etc lah..i dont like her at all..she always give too much homework..too much assignment..grr...and she cant smile at all...being serious all the time..@@...im so boring..jaja..today i walked...huuh...so cold..but Thanx GOD...in the afternoon a bit warmer..hehe...today i went to supermarkt..bought a cheese..waah...really2 good cheese...but so expensive =( ..bought a course book..waa..waa...so expensive 30 euro..in Indo i can get 10 books like that...aaah...so tired...i walked around the town...i visit every shop there..haha...juz had nothing to do..then i take a rest a bit,,waah...feeling so Good..yea..yea..tomorrow go to school again..the last day of this week..im happy about it ^__^" weekeeeeeeend....

2006-02-27T11:41:00.000-08:00

Daddy fly to China tomorow...Argh....i hate it..i have to walk again every morning T_T...so sad...the weather is still cold...oh i mizz sun..i mizz Indonesia...i mizz summer...huhu...until when i have to wait?im boring already with this life...i dont want to always complain and complain...i want to do something better...but until now i'm still confuse...tomorrow start to go to school again...so boring..i hate the teacher,the members of the class...so boriiiing....hah...i have to face it...T_T..OMG....why my life become like this?if i know it before...better i wont go here...better i study in Indo....All of my bestfriends are there...they will be there for me...whenever what i feel...having fun...Hiks...i mizz those time when we were together...really2...mizzing 'em.. =(

If only...my parents allow me to go back to indo..hahhauaha....i will be very happy ^__^

Not like here...i dont have anyone to share...to cry with..to laugh with....all is just a fake...i hate them all...huh....juz love my family here...@+*#=?%$&amp;`$%=§`&)§&$%`/'###@@........Need Heeeeeeelppppppppp...Im sick of this lifeeeeeeee....Can't u let me laugh juz for a second?why?why?why?why?...I hate u so muuuuuch...............reallly really really..........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-27T07:33:00.000-08:00

*If you want to feel rich, just count all of the things you have that money can't buy.*

*Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't.*

*Do you ever wonder which hurts more? Saying something and wish you never had or saying nothing and wishing you had?*

*Happiness is like perfume, you can not pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself.*

*How you spend your time is far more important that how you spend your money. Money mistakes can be corrected, but time is gone forever.*

*If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, you're right*

*It's better to be hated for who you are, then to be loved for someone you aren't*.

*It takes 84 muscles to frown and only 7 to smile, so keep smiling*

*Leave the past behind you, That's where it's meant to be.*

*Like and love me for who I am, not for what you want me to be*

*Never ask yourself "What if?" because the frustration of asking "What if" is NEVER finding out the answer.*

*The great pleasure in life is doing what people say you can not do.*

*Things aren't always what they seem and people never tell you how they truly feel*

*You never get a second chance to make a first impression*

*If you cannot get what you like, why not try to like what you get?*

*Start off every day with a smile and get it over with.*

*Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't.*

*Almost all of our unhappiness is the result of comparing ourselves to others.*

2006-02-26T16:11:00.000-08:00

*...My Conversation with Online Psychiater..l0l...*

??????,?????: hehe.. just tell me la.. what problem cannot solve?
* +(^_^)+(*): i dont know what the Point
* +(^_^)+(*): i juz feel all mixed inside my brain
* +(^_^)+(*): @@
* +(^_^)+(*): i feel wanna clean my brain
??????,?????: its always like that when you are lost..
* +(^_^)+(*): like erasing all spyware
??????,?????: just put things aside..
??????,?????: do what is important 1st.
??????,?????: you know how is it like..
??????,?????: its like my desktop now..
??????,?????: i always save my things on the desktop..
* +(^_^)+(*): and?
??????,?????: then it wont help me.. it only make my computer slow..
??????,?????: so i have to sort it out.. put them in folders..
??????,?????: those not impt things just delete..
??????,?????: if you keep on thinking want to keep it or not.. you wont solve the problem.
* +(^_^)+(*): but its hard nOt to think it
??????,?????: if you want to keep then keep it in folder.. if dont want just delete.. next time regret then search for it.
* +(^_^)+(*): waahaha
* +(^_^)+(*): okay2
??????,?????: that is life la.. you dont know what will happen later..
??????,?????: so do what you think is right, with a reason.
??????,?????: if you dont do keep thinking, you are not moving..
??????,?????: always at the same spot = life wasted.
* +(^_^)+(*): Yes2
??????,?????: so.. move on! no one will wait for you :P
* +(^_^)+(*): u rite
* +(^_^)+(*): i think im so childish
??????,?????: hehe.. you can be childish la..
??????,?????: you still young :P
??????,?????: but must learn to grow up slowly la..
* +(^_^)+(*): YesYesYes
* +(^_^)+(*): maybe with the time
* +(^_^)+(*): i will grow up step by step
??????,?????: if you rush to be adult you will be semi adult.. like what i see here..
??????,?????: here, there is alot people who can talk and think logically, then when comes to action.. become very small
??????,?????: say and do differently.. that is because they rush and want to be adult.

Blue Monday..

2006-02-26T10:51:00.000-08:00

Ah...TodaY isnt so such a good day...feeling so blue...feel so tired,dont have good enough mood to do anything....slept at 5 o'clock...Coz too many thinking...Don't know how to explain my feeling rite now...@_@...today just went to grandma's house..i spent my time with watching tv there..write some sms to my friends...ah..when im in this situation..i miz my friends xo much...feel wanna have fun together with 'em...wanna share what i really feel inside... :(..haha...its okay lah..later will get better...maybe wanna sleep earlier tonight,..im so sick of today...of You...u make me so desperate...i prefer to be alone,than have such a f*cking day becoz of u..!Ah...time to take a rest...

2006-02-25T17:46:00.000-08:00

How deep it goes..

Is up to me.

How much blood flowsIs up to me.

When will i stop?

We'll wait and see.

When my pain goes For me to be me.

Tears roll down my cheek.

I don't like it one bit.

It's made me so weak.

I wish i could get rid of it.

You try and stop me.

And i really am trying,

But it's not working.

I just seem to be dying

Learn..

2006-02-25T08:23:00.000-08:00

It's hard to me..but i have to learn how to hide my feelings.. =(

Stupid,Dumb,Bored,Hopeless

2006-02-24T17:02:00.000-08:00

Arhg....i think today is my bad day...i really2 dont know what i did....i feel so angry to anyone....feel so lonely...hix,,,suddenly i miz my friends in indo T_T...yeah...what i learned from today is....love is always beginned with happiness but end with sadness..anything can come and go..but i believe in one thing,than someday we will find our true love,,which has no end and will last forever...so catch ur true love..don't give up..and find ur happiness...

......HuFf...TiRed2 Dayy.......

2005-09-22T14:46:00.000-07:00

Today..

I didn't come to my deutch course...BecooZ there was some problem with the train..U know what?I already woke up at 5.30..its just becooz my friend woke me up...grrrrrr...he made me angry...after that..i prepared myself to go to school..yeaah...actually..i have to walk until the train station..N u knoe wat?in the morning is very cold..>.<",so i had to use my jacket ,when i arrived,the train is already there..so i go inside and looking for some place..the train is not like usual..becoz..it alwez stop in every place..so i was a little bit confuse,im afraid if i took a wrong train..OH MY GOD,(ik ol san..lol)yeah..when we arived in wels..the train stop for a long time..i don't know why..and suddenly it go back,,so i was very afraid..huh...but..Thanks God the train go straight again ^^"..u know?i arrived in linz at 9.15am..n the course is begin at 08.30..so..when i arrived there..i didnt go to course,i go to shopping centre in landstrasse ^^"...my mom oso told me to not go to course,becoz its too late she said..yeaa..its good,because i didnt do my homework yet...lol..so i bought a pullover,and went to supermarkt^^..after that i went home..in the afternoon..is very hot..i like it..but i have nothing to do again in linz..so i went home directly..today im very heppy..u know what?i will tell you later..^____^V

My FiRst Post

2005-09-20T09:07:00.000-07:00

just want to fill my firs blog...^ö^V